We have joined the rest of the country and made a #rainbow design in our living room window. The kids have drawn one on a piece of paper and also used window felt pens to design a 🌈 on the pane itself. It looks pretty. The kiddies are very happy with them. They lit up when the neighbours asked for them to make them rainbows for the window.

I love this part of the front garden, you can just see the flowers are about to bloom any day now. Daffodils are hiding in amongst the tulips, hyacinths full of a deep purple, the Heather has come up a nice reddy purple too. By the front door there is a sea of purple from the aster (I think that’s what they are). Can you see the beautiful Camellia to the left of the kiddies too? It’s about to bloom with its bright pink flowers. The yellow Jasmine is just starting to grow on the right side of the kiddies, can you see it climbing up the wall?

There’s so much going on. It looks beautiful. I don’t remember it looking this pretty last Spring. Maybe I didn’t pay much attention. Or maybe these things have grown from random seeds I planted last year and forgot about. I can’t remember what I planted though 🤦🏼‍♀️ Does anyone else do that?

Have you seen many rainbows in the window of people’s homes?

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A very happy birthday to my first furbaby, Rambo. He is 13 today. I can’t believe he’s been in my life for 13 years, we’ve done so much and seen so many places. It’s gone so quickly.

He is so good, his temperament is just perfect. He’s not a yappy dog. He barks to mark his territory but that’s it. When the kids were toddlers, they would pull his fur out in clumps and he would just lay there. He cleans the other pets in the house and always makes sure the kids are safe at night time. It’s so cute. He’s such a loving, fatherly dog.

This little man is my follower at the moment; more so than normal. He follows me everywhere. If I’m on the loo, he will sit at the bathroom door staring at me. When I’m in the bath, he pushes the door open and sits next to me and stares. Right now, he’s currently snuggling under the duvet.

Let’s hope we can go and explore somewhere new in the summer, with amazing views and miles of countryside. Our favourite.

Thanks for all the adventures Rambo 🐾 and the snuggles! We love you lots.

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I wonder what is going through their tiny minds right now? Do you think they consider things like we do? Do you think they #dream of what’s going on? The kids seem to be taking it all in their stride and albeit they are sad they can’t see their friends, they seem to be just getting on with it.

Whereas, I go through waves of different feelings. I’ve discovered I’m at my best when I just take each day as it comes. When I start to think about things globally, or the time period of lockdowns and when the kids are going back to school... that’s when I start to feel worried and glum.

I worry that my employer will soon say “sorry Sonia we’re not paying you anymore as you’re homeschooling”, or the worry that I’m not teaching my kids correctly and they’re missing too much of their education. Or the impact of isolation on the kiddies at this age, making friendships and building rapport with people.

I hope these are worries over nothing. And I know all of the kiddies in the world are in the same boat. But, as a parent you can’t help but worry.

So for now I’m trying not to think negatively. Trying not to think more than 1 day ahead (except maybe planning Easter Sunday dinner) and I’m trying to keep smiling. So my babies keep smiling.

Keep calm and carry on. Isn’t that the saying!

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This afternoons activity with Daddy looked like lots of fun: they gathered sticks and the kiddies built their own pile of firewood for a camp fire. They then sat around the fire pit to test whose camp fire would flame up the best!

Isla created a very structured camp fire, logical and a pattern to where she placed her sticks. Noahs looked more sporadic but covered a wider area.

Neither camp fires took fire, it was quite windy. So the kiddies enjoyed a hot chocolate and marshmallow around their piles of sticks.

They had fun though and that’s the main thing. I’m loving all of these practical tasks they’re doing with Daddy.

I’ve been waiting, all day, for someone to tell me it’s all a dream and we are still going to Dubai. But, unfortunately, no one jumped out screaming April #fool and alas, we are still at home. I’m gutted.

Lots to look forward to though and right now it’s about focussing on our main objective: stay at home at all times, unless to buy essential food & walk the dogs! I have actually loved being at home everyday. It’s my favourite place.

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“We are very excited to try out this new food from Forthglade, it smells woofing delicious” 🐾 Straight from the doggies mouth!

I am very excited to announce that I am a new ambassador for @forthglade. What does that mean? Well, I get to try out the products and tell you all how good they are and get special offers and discounts for my followers too!

It’s such a strange time with lockdown, however finding out about Forthglade couldn’t have come at a better time. When I went to get our usual dog foods in the supermarket it had all sold out. So, resorting to online orders seemed a very natural thing to do to ensure our furbabies are fed.

This food is a minimum of 75% meat or fish and is free from junk. With Snoopy, he has a tummy condition which means we have to be careful what he eats, it’s perfect. We will keep you posted on what they thought! 🐾 #gifted

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🌼 April is here and along with it comes another set of photo keywords for #MummyPhotoADay photo challenge.

We should have been flying to Dubai today, so my insta squares would have been very different to what they now will be. I’m expecting to see lots of Spring colours and stay at home families instead this month.

Don’t forget to use the hashtag #mummyphotoaday so I can comment and share my favourites throughout the month.

Does anyone have any creative stay at home plans for April?

🌼 April is here and...

My favourite pics from March #MummyPhotoADay - a massive thank you to everyone that took part. We have had a lot of new members this month and it’s been really hard picking my favourite 9! There are now over 4,000 photos to choose from.

All photos are tagged, but from left right:
📷 @cultivatingdelight
📷 @newmummyblog
📷 @confessionsofacrummymummy
📷 @houseofbaughs
📷 @sahrazade
📷 @otisandus.blog
📷 @_lisaslife_
📷 @socalshopgirl384
📷 @descendants_of_war

I’ve really loved seeing photos from @anywaytostayathome, @the_mummy_editorial, @freyalexandra, @becsbrewtifullife & @canonjacq.

All you have to do to join in is add #mummyphotoaday to your caption and the keyword of the day... I’m very excited to see what April has in store for us. Lots of fun “Stay at #Home” themed photos!

Thank you to everyone that joins in 📷

My favourite pics from March...

The kiddies had a lot of fun playing in the bath today. Swimming pools are closed, it’s too cold to get outside in a paddling pool so we put our swimming costumes on and pretended!

The kids had loads of fun making sparkly bath water and foaming soap shapes with @kidsstuffcrazy products. It’s amazing how fun products like this can keep the kiddies entertained for hours.

They literally played in the bath for an hour. The water had gone cold by the time they got out. It was the perfect indoor fun activity, especially as it was wet outside today.

If you’re homeschooling and self isolating with young children why not make a fun bath and invite the kids to make a mess with whatever you have in the bathroom! We also tried to make our own bubble bath using washing up liquid and #citrus juice - it wasn’t a nice smell 😂 the kiddies will try again in the week.

You can get the Magical Sparkle bubble bath and Foaming Soap from Kids Stuff Crazy at @superdrug - check out my review on the blog. #linkinbio

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Thursday thoughts – 364 days

364 days has passed, tomorrow is the day that I have been dreading for 364 days. The year, the day that a year has passed. How can a year have passed already? Well, it has. I think about it a lot, that week in the hospice. But not often for the bad reasons. I think about Grandad and I remember happy times, things that make me smile. It is hard at times, when I feel low, I just want to cuddle him. One day!

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I spent the day with my Grandma today, we talked about Grandad for a while, it was really nice to just sit and talk to someone who knew him more than anyone else. She holds a lot of precious memories of Grandad, which she will keep close to her heart. It’s the most special gift you can give to someone I think. I explained that some days, most days when I visit her I still wait for him to come down the stairs after his nap saying “oooh look whose here”. After a year, should I not feel like this? I feel like he is still there, he is still with us. Then some days I feel low and I know he isn’t. I picture him lying in the hospice, quiet and rested and remember he isn’t. He really isn’t. This time last year would have been the last time I saw Grandad alive. I spent the night in his hospice room with him, Grandma and Mumma, the last night. It was a Wednesday night. He was very peaceful and he was very calm, breathing patterns changed a lot and we hung on every breathe. It had been like that for 24 hours or so. So many emotions had run through us all, so many episodes of grief had been experienced in that room and that was when he was still with us. We had argued, cried, fallen out, laughed, joked, gossiped and talked the days and nights away. The week felt like an entire month. I think to be honest it was the most peaceful week of my life. I would give anything to be there again holding his hand. I love his hands. He had great hands, squidgy finger tips. I used to love squidging them.

I will never forget the day he passed away, I had  to go home to look after the children. I had to at some point, I know that. Hubby had to go to work and Nanny and Grandad had been helping so much that I had to step away from the hospice and spend some time with the children. It was good for me. I know that now. Looking back. They keep me happy. They keep me smiling. Just like Grandad did. It was 5pm that evening though that I received the call from Mumma, the call with no words. I was just leaving my house, with the kids, to take them to Nanny’s so I could go back to the hospice and “that” call came. Just tears on the other end. Mumma couldn’t even utter the words to me. But I knew what she was saying. I knew it in the tears. I felt so lost. So panicked and completely miserable that I had not been with him at that moment. Holding his hand. I almost hate myself for it. But Mumma told me that he felt happy to go when I wasn’t there as I was with my babies, where I should be. Which comforts me a little bit. Maybe she is right.

I have been looking through some of my photos, some of the happy photos that make me smile.

Rambo loved Grandad, I think everyone loved Grandad to be honest, he was a hard man not to love! If that makes sense. He loved animals and always greeted them with open arms, and chins for kisses of course. He loved walking dogs, growing up he always had a dog and he would always take the dog for walks – I used to love it at weekends as I would meet him at the common near my family home and would walk with him.

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The photo below was taken when I was quite pregnant with Noah, Grandads nephew Alec and his wife Judy came over from New Zealand to visit and we got some lovely photos of everyone. Amongst them was this one, I treasure it because it is me and my Grandad – he does look like he is giving me that look though! The look that says I am not completely happy with what you have just said/done and my face looks rather smug. For the life of me I cannot remember what we were talking about, but I love the photo regardless of his expression. He had a lot of expressions, mainly big cheesey grins, he would enter a room with a big cheesey grin and instantly you smiled – inside and outside.

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Below is Alec and Judy, with Grandma and my littlens. This was last year, just after Grandad’s funeral. They had come over from New Zealand again to see us all and wanted so dearly to see Grandad, but they missed him by 2 weeks. It was such a shame, but it was super to see them and it’s funny because Alec just reminds me so much of Grandad. They share an uncanny resemblance – you can tell they are related and I think he looks a lot like Grandad. It comforts me. It makes me want to live in New Zealand.

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This one is my favourite photos out of the archives, it kind of shows the Grandad smile. The one that makes you feel happy just to see it, he could be smiling about nothing at all, it wouldn’t matter, you just felt happy. That’s what he meant to me, just be with him, near him, talk to him, share a smile and a joke with him made me feel happy. This photo was at his 90th birthday do last March (2013) before we found out about the illness. Before our little lives were shaken upside down. He makes me feel incredibly proud to be his grand-daughter. I am proud to be a Bentley. I now have my own little mini (half) Bentley’s to bring up and I will make sure that they never forget who he was, what he meant to me and how amazing he was. It’s funny as Noah shares a few of his little characteristics, he just does little things that Grandad used to do too. It comforts me. Little Noah George Constant – George being Grandad’s name.

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The 1st of August will be a hard day. A hard day for all of us. I love you Grandad, very much.

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