I had a busy Sunday painting the dining room with @frenchicpaint. I think it’s fair to say I’m obsessed. I painted the radiator and skirting boards with Dazzle Me. It’s super bright white. I painted the door with City Slicker. It looks so much better than the dark wood it was before.

If you swipe left you can see the before photos. The radiator was a beige colour before. It’s amazing how much brighter the room looks, it’s easy to #transform a room with an hour or 2 of painting.

I styled up the dining room with this beautiful bouquet of Spring flowers (a very kind gift from a friend) and these items from @pricescandlesuk. They eliminate pet odours which is great as sometimes I worry my house smells “dog”. After an impromptu afternoon off work, looking after Isla who hurt her neck at dance club, I cleaned and cleaned. The house smells nice and clean now. The household candle and reed diffuser have added a nice citrus and thyme scent to the room.

It’s amazing what you can do to change the feel of a room with simple steps!

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I had a busy Sunday...

#Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. We aren’t all the same. Wouldn’t the world be a boring place if that was the case. Everyone has a viewpoint. Everyone has their own opinion.

However, I am a firm believer in “if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all”. I think it’s really important to spread happiness, build confidence and support each other. Now my big cheesey smile isn’t like this everyday, sometimes I’m worn out and sometimes I’m feeling sad. But I’ve learnt how to offload, unwind and bring that smile back. It’s so important to be able to hit that reset button once in a while.

So, this week, try and do one of these things:
🤍 Make someone laugh, a big belly laugh
🤍 Tell someone they look amazing
🤍 Tell someone you love you are grateful for them

See how it makes you feel. To make someone else’s day. It’s euphoric. I will never forget the moment one of the Mums from the school run told me I completely picked them up out of a dark spot - just by telling them they looked amazing today as I walked past.

Take the time to appreciate. Honestly it’s THE best hobby!

On a little diverted note; I’m appreciating this coat and boots right now. So warm and comfy. Check out the details on my blog >>> #linkinbio

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#ad Coat & Boots from @idealworld.tv and they are @joebrowns 🙌🏻

#Beauty is in the eye...

This might seem a little random after the sentiments in my last post. But bear with me... cleaning & #diy can help me with my mental health.

I’m not sure why but when I’m anxious, need to think or cross I clean. Like the deep clean stuff, it’s almost as if I get adrenaline from somewhere to give me the strength to scrub things that I wouldn’t normally. Or tackle something I wouldn’t normally.

On Thursday, whilst anxiously waiting to find out what was wrong with my grandma, I was shaving millimetres off Isla’s bedroom door. It was hard work but I didn’t want to just sit about.

Today I’ve painted the radiator and woodwork in our dining room with Frenchic. I now have a white and bright radiator and grey door. It looks so much better. Again, it’s something I can do whilst being lost in my thoughts.

Does anyone else do this?

Whilst promoting cleaning and mindfulness, check out my blog for a competition to win some goodies from @astonishcleaners #astonishingresults 
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This might seem a little...

I’m sure I don’t need to tell you what beauty shared this on her instagram before Christmas:  @carolineflack you’ve broken my heart.

She was funny. Caring. Kind. Absolutely beautiful and that smile lit up the world. Not perfect. But who is? No one.

I can’t comprehend how someone of such radiance and sparkle can end their life. But I only assume her mental health was suffering. She felt so trapped that was her only way out. A way of ending the pain that nobody could see.

Mental health is invisible; yet mental health is all consuming. Mental health is complicated; yet mental health can be helped with a simple cup of tea and chat.

Smile on the inside and on the out.

Make time for yourself.

Love yourself.

Make time for others.

Be kind.

Always. 
In a world where you can be anything, be kind  #bekind #ripcarolineflack

I’m sure I don’t need...

This is sheer appreciation. This man. My lobster 🦞. Who made me the scrummiest meal last night & dreamy Vegan brownies. Showered me with thoughtful gifts & my cute note (in my stories) I recieved in my lunch bag.

However, I was a complete emotional wreck yesterday as my Grandma was taken into hospital. She was distressed, confused and sounding a little slow. It was scary.

So the Valentine’s Day love went all to Grandma from my family; wishing & hoping they find out what’s wrong.

We’re currently waiting to find out if her BP has reduced. It was sky high. Hoping she’s better & I can bring her home today.

This photo was from last Summer when we went to @carluccios in Cambridge. I love it. Happy memories. I’m lucky to have these. Noahs a people watcher, he was distracted with the crowd. Incidentally Carluccio’s have the offer on again: kids eat for a £1... #appreciation #family #love #mummyphotoaday

This is sheer appreciation. This...

Happy Valentine’s Day 🤍

A lot to be thankful for today. Love is a big word. I love these two quotes and perfect for today.

Yes it’s about celebrating your life with your lobster 🦞(mine is rather amazing) but it’s also about family.

Family is not just an important thing. It’s everything. So true.

I don’t know where I’d be without my lobster and my family... I hung these beauts in our bathroom and I love them. They make me smile everytime I clean my teeth! Which helps 😂

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#ad Prints are from @coulsonmacleod - so beautiful

Happy Valentine’s Day 🤍 A...

I love this new story corner I’ve created for Isla, with a little help from @vertbaudetuk. It is a gorgeous space and I couldn’t wait for her to get home and see it. She was so happy!

I love the large floor cushion, I want an entire room kitted out with them so I can just chill in the middle. It would be so cosy. Or even just #half a room! 🤍

Isla loves reading and so I thought this little corner would be perfect for her. She loves it.

I started with the floor cushion, I hung the coat rack for her monkeys and dressing gown and then I hung the shelves. They are so cute. I finished it all off with the mirror. I love all the colours and shapes. It really finishes off her room.

Who else wants the futon cushion? 🙋🏼‍♀️ #mummyphotoaday #ad

I love this new story...

I love trying new makeup, especially the vegan variety! I’ve recently discovered the fab range from @ex1cosmetics - you can grab them at your local @superdrug. So easy to find when you run out.

I’ve done a bit of a makeup tutorial on the blog using the EX1 Cosmetic products. Please forgive me, my skin is awful at the moment. Since I’ve been exercising more my skin has been really spotty. The spots that hide under the skin too!

If you swipe left then you’ll see the fab products I used. Then check out my stories for the swipe up link to my blog post.

I’m no make up artist haha. I prefer natural tones, that give my face #warmth. These products are perfect for that, especially the pink blusher! I wanted to show you what the products do and how they can be used together. Perfect makeup for your Valentine’s Day date!

#mummyphotoaday #ad

I love trying new makeup,...

A mothers guilt

I have been reading a few blog posts over the weeks about the coming September and the new task that some of us Mum’s have had to complete, the filling in of the school applications. Yes, little Noah will be starting school in September and some of these heart felt posts have confirmed that I am not the only one who has been feeling guilty. A mothers guilt.

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What do I mean?

The guilt that I work full time and do not watch my babies grow up each day.

The guilt that I do not get to play game with them every day and play with their new toys and watch them smile and learn.

The guilt that I feel when I get to work and I think I wonder what they are doing today. I wonder if they are missing me.

The guilt I feel when I see and hear other Mum’s are out with their children, enjoying the day of snow or meeting up for those coffee mornings that I used to do when the little ones were babies.

The guilt I feel when I am eating my lunch and I am not eating my lunch with them.

The guilt I feel when I am sat at my desk and I think, why? Why am I not spending my day with my children? Questioning the very reasons why I am working full time. Questioning everything in regards to those prescious little people.


I think most of all, the guilt that I know I will feel in September is what is worrying me most. When Noah trots off to school. The emotion I know I will feel and the almost certain regret that I didn’t spend more time with him in his first years. I cannot change it, these are the decisions I made. These are the paths we chose. All I can do is make sure he is happy.

It does break my heart to think Noah will be going to school in September and I will not be able to enjoy his company every day, as he will be going to school. But I suppose I do not now, so what difference should it make? It is almost like a when I won’t be able to, will I want to more situation. It will be too late to change any working patterns and spend more time at home. But I have my reasons for working full time and that is to make their lives in the future better, a mortgage, our own home. Somewhere that we can call our own and make it just right. Sometimes I do wonder if it is worth all that I am going through. The long days, the travelling all over the place, the stress bouncing from work to home and to work again, the tiredness, the guilt and the missing my babies so much it hurts.

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Don’t get me wrong, I know he hasn’t had a bad four years. He spends two days a week with his Nanny, who he loves very much, he learns and plays new things and see’s different members of the family and gets to scoot around the park and eat all Nanny’s yoghurts – his favourite thing on a Friday morning. That makes me feel happy, knowing that they are with family. People they love. Once a week he spends time with his Great Grandma, and either his Nanna or Mummy keeping a close eye on them from afar. But those two days a week that he goes to nursery and he has awfully long days, those are the days I feel especially guilty. At least that will not be the case in September. He will be coming home after school and having tea. I will spend more time with him then and Isla too of course. A new routine. A new life. And hopefully one I will not feel guilty of.

I suppose I just have to keep reminded myself of that, September isn’t something to feel guilty about, or look back and feel guilty. It’s a new chapter. A new routine. A chance to make it better and learn from what didn’t make us happy.

I still can’t believe he is going to school…

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11 Comments
  • teacuptoria
    February 6, 2015

    Hi Sonia, Lovely to come over to your blog for the first time! Ahh the old guilt issue, isn’t it horrid! Why us mothers have this guilt complex I just don’t know. We give as much as we can and sounds like you do that for your kids. At the end of the day they are their own little people and have to learn to develop independence and once they taste this, they love it. So we’ve actually not got any reason to feel guilty at all! Lovely post. Tor xx

    • MummyConstant
      February 6, 2015

      Thank you Tor and so lovely to meet you.

      Yes you are right, I hadnt thought of it like that. 🙂 They do love their independence. Especially Isla. So thank you for reminding me about this.

      Love your blog. Women drivers rule 😉 x

  • When my son started school last September I felt this feeling that you had. But it all went away when I saw how happy he is and how he is learning. You will be amaze of the development that you child will go through and I suggest you watch closely as its going to be fast =)

    Goodness I hope I am making some sense. #pocolo

  • Monica Gilbert
    February 7, 2015

    If you weren’t working, you’d probably feel guilty about not contributing to the family financially. I know I’ve felt that way. I’m about to start a job at a nursery (that my 2 year old will be attending), and I’m feeling guilty that the change might be hard on her. No matter what, guilt seems to be a given for moms. You just have to do the best with the time you have and remind yourself of how your choices benefit the family. (I’ll keep trying to do the same.)

  • Verily Victoria Vocalises
    February 7, 2015

    I hear you! I listened to a talk from Davina McCall once and she made such a great point about this – that Mum’s feel guilt because they care and because it means they are a good mum. I think I agree with her. I love that first photo – beautiful. Thank you for linking to #PoCoLo 🙂 x

  • Both my parents worked and I am sure they felt like this too, but I didn’t suffer because of it. I grew up being a very happy and independent kid!

  • Sarah @tamingtwins
    February 9, 2015

    Don’t be too hard on yourself, it takes all types of Mums to make the world go round and working Mums are inspiring their kids to be strong, hard-working providers through example. GO YOU!

  • Donna @ Little Lilypad Co
    February 9, 2015

    Great post and it will hit a nerve with many of us mums.

    I work from home and still feel the guilt. I am constantly juggling work and a toddler and I worry that she has started using the phrase “give me a minute” ….. I can hear myself in her words.

    I have another year until I have those school decisions, I just need to figure out how to shift the balance. Any suggestions??? 🙂

  • SouthwarkBelle
    February 9, 2015

    I think guilt is sadly inevitable for mums, if you work full time you worry about not seeing enough of your kids, if you stay at home there is the guilt of not contributing financially and if (like me) you work time time then there is the guilt that you aren’t doing anything, work or home, properly! We really can’t win can we!

  • Ghostwriter Mummy
    February 9, 2015

    Oh I hate mummy guilt. I do work, but from home and although I do get to eat lunch with them there is no less guilt. Whatever we feel we don’t get right we feel guilty about. And now that my 10 year old thinks I don’t work and therefore mums don’t work, I feel the guilt that I don’t go out to work. Arrgh! We can’t win. I think as long as we make the most of the time we have with them then we should congratulate ourselves on a job well done x x x x

  • Katie @mummydaddyme
    February 15, 2015

    I generally think as a parent you feel guilty whatever. I can completely understand what you are saying in this post lovely and I have no doubt that I would feel the same. I can imagine working full time does make you feel guilty when it absolutely SHOULDN’T- you are contributing to your family, you are providing your children with a great work ethic and you are showing them so many good things. I work part time but because it’s freelance I always feel SO guilty that I am never fully switched off- I go on my computer sometimes when I shouldn’t etc. I think we are just programmed to feel guilty- when we shouldn’t, whatever our situation is. Sending you lots of hugs. xx

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